Free

Well little man has been asleep for an hour now and I've been on the internet for an hour, not really doing anything constructive. As I keep telling myself I need to get doing things - it will help me. I am wishing little man would sleep until 5.30pm but we all know that's not going to happen and then he would be running around all night. I am very grateful that he goes to bed no problems somewhere between 7 and 8pm and sleeps through 12 hours at least :-)

I can't conform to strict times anymore, neither do I do what "people think I should do" as much as I used to. I do try to ensure my little man's sleep is at roughly the same time every day and I won't go to afternoon playgroups so he can has his sleep. This is partially for my own sanity! Being a mummy has given me freedom, freedom to take 3 hours to do the shopping in Tesco if needed, freedom to go somewhere slowly and not panic too much about when you have to back. Especially if one takes lots of food and juice out in her bag little man can be fed anywhere and whilst he is quite adapatable and well mannered things go very well. Sometimes I hate it when hubby says it's time to go to bed - why can't we just go to bed instead when we feel tired!

I'm a lot happier now and I have found that stopping looking in a mirror constantly worked wonders. I have also stopped watching the news, around the time of the World Trade Centre terrorist attacks and the following London tube bombings I got extremely paranoid that the Eastern world was going to attack the West and we would end up in WW3. I even considered stocking up on tinned food and bottled water but luckily common sense prevailed. Several years later I hardly think about it. I came to the conclusion that the news programmes and newspapers are completely incapable of telling anything except bad news so I don't read them anymore. I don't follow politics and probably couldn't tell you the the names of the treasurer and the foreign seceratry but I really don't care.

The baby monitor is sending me little man's baby babble from the car so he obviously awake .. off ot get hima nd see what the afternoon brings! x